Feb 20. my experiment is dwindling.... i need to spark the flame again. headed to a cuz bday party with the family.
AE Christmas

I m still very much in the angry stage...
it comes and goes
ebbs and flows
i have to use the trickle down effect to calm myself
i have never felt this feeling before
maybe i can't pull myself out of this ditch
maybe i should just lay here for a while
til i get the strength i need...

who really wants to be here?

This don't get easier...

"I find it hard to say... that everything is all right.." - Lauryn Hill

My experiment to submit daily messages has been derailed by illness and infidelity. Hopefully neither of these proves to be chonic illnesses.

Dixi

I have spoken... i think i have accepted her flaws, because i know my own.

Can i live with this? Can i once again see my her as the women i loved yesterday morning?

I said it back in September that this is going to be a cold winter... it is proving itself to be one. I will be a recluse for now. mourn my loss.

like i said... i don't want to be at this place at this time. how do people do it. it wasn't that large, but Soni, how the fuck?

i accept her back 'cuz i know it isn't her. i haven't lost her, she lost herself.